Act natural

( Saturday, Oct. 12, 2002 12:08 am )

>Driving me mad

I've decided today's theme song is "Driving Me Mad" by Neil Finn (formerly resident in the Crowded House), which is doing just that in my head right now. It also fits my mood today perfectly, because my bleakness continues unabated. If only it weren't raining, if only I had friends. Tomorrow June is babysitting Baby Boy, so I guess I can go downstairs and get in some frowsy babyhead time, maybe that will be helpful therapy, with the added benefit that if he's wailing, I can just book it outta here over to CVS to buy new shampoo, therapy plan #2.

I had a bunch of strange dreams this morning, but the worst of all was one in which I was looking in a mirror and discovering that one of my ears was really gross--kind of, and I'm sorry to put this image in your head, rotting. In another one, my family (which consisted of the comatose guy on the last ER, that blond whorish girl on Daws, Cousin Derrick, and June's friend Emi) disrupted a boring high school graduation ceremony by shouting and hauling around a drunken Audrey (Daws whorey gal).

In other news, tonight I tried to recreate my Special Birthday Red Curry, but it came out totally gross. I made it with tofu instead of chicken, and I bought cream of coconut instead of coconut milk by mistake--it tasted pretty good while I was having dinner, but now I'm feeling a little sick, and eating Tums more than usual.

In conclusion, two things about me:

1. In my anxiety dreams, since I've been an "adult," I dream that my hair has been bleached orange and yellow. When I was a kid, my anxiety dreams always involved my father dying.

2. I have a giant bottle of Tums on my desk at all times and eat an average of two every day. I've been hypochondriacal about Tums/stomach upset since I was a youngster.

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