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( Thursday, Aug. 29, 2002 11:22 am )

>Renewable resources

So I couldn't update last night, which is a crying shame because I was very stirred up by a phone call from a certain person I like to call Nathan (by the by, the first person to call me aside from telemarketers and Juney), who always unsettles my already unsettled mind because I get this rush of adrenaline A) whenever I have to talk to anyone, answer questions, etc. and B) whenever a boy calls me. Full red alert. Also, afterwards I have to dissect everything he says with a lawyerly precision even though I have a terrible memory for word-for-word reenactments. Sorry to embody a stereotype there, but I just can't help it. I think of things I should have said a minimum of two hours later, meanwhile in the actual conversation I mainly say "I don't know" and ask questions. But blah blah blah, point is he sounded very glad to be talking to me. It gave me plenty to analyze. My previous Nathan policy had been "aloofness," which consists of only emailing after he emails first and talking when he calls but never calling him. These measures were put in place after the fact that he didn't seem to want to see me at all this summer, causing me to suddenly like him better than I ever did when I was seeing him, and hence become somewhat disturbed. But after talking to him last night I began feeling a certain inkling of that old mild guilt for being the one to move away when he liked me so well. In conclusion, I still don't know what his deal is but he's always seemed like a nice guy. And I'm devoting far too much mental energy to this, I can see. Blegh, blegh. It's the smooching, I tell you, it destroys the brain. Plus I'm lonely, OK?

Meanwhile, on this planet, it's cold, it's cold!!!! I'm so happy, also because I bought cool shoes yesterday and did my laundry. Last night Juney and I ate many donuts (purchased from the most, I'm sorry but, ghetto grocery store I have ever had the pleasure of being in) and watched Fight Club. Let me digress on Fight Club for a second here. I know I'm behind the curve, but this is the first time I've seen it. For about the first half I was all like "This is the feel-good movie of the year." Honestly, I really liked it, but then it kind of went on too long and got too hyberbolic and...something. I'm not too good at movie criticism. But it was a total Scooby Doo movie (as in the cartoon, not the live-action), because when the big identity mystery gets solved near the end you had so few clues that you couldn't have solved it yourself. Edward Norton fought himself?? Come on now, movie, work with me. But anyway, I thought it was good. I did say we should have rented "Swingers" though, because we've been reading Maxim and everything. Money, baby. Etc. Oh, and Juney found National Geographic on the street yesterday, so the treasure trove of used magazines on recycling day continues to renew itself. The world takes care of us!

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